ayoamanda

eleven ten.

2008-05-15T15:25:17Z

Today is my fourth day of suspension, so far its okay. I sleep until elevenish, get up and eat a waffle, watch tv all day, go to sleep at 1 in the morning, and then repeat my entire day once again. I am pretty excited to go back to school but only because I wanna see all my friends and be able to run around with Haley and actually see Andrew and stuff. Me and Andrew talked yesterday about our well "relationship" status. We aren't together still but we act like we are. The only reason we aren't putting a name to it I guess is because of my brother. He is scared that when my brother does come back in like four months that he is going to beat the shit out of him. I told him we should focus on if we are still even together in four months or not, but I don't know, I guess we'll just wait and see what happens.

So my dad talked to me yesterday about going to see Brian. His graduation from basic training is in August so we are gonna fly down to go see it. My brother is paying for my ticket so that I can actually go because he wants me too. He also wants us to bring his girlfriend Aleesha. So its gonna be me my dad my dads girlfriend and Aleesha. My dad wants to get a room in a hotel so that when we fly down we can chill for the day before going to watch his graduation. Well he wants to get two rooms, one for him and Terri, and one for me and Aleesha. I cannot wait until August I'm gonna like cry when I see my brother I miss him so freekin MUCH. Well I'm gonna go find something to do, I haven't stepped foot outside in five days, HA whatta loserrr.

arrested.

2008-05-13T17:07:04Z

This is basically for friday but I haven't been on so I couldnt write. Anyways, on Friday I got into a fight with Holli. Third period after Biology. It was with Haley. She went to the nurse after and complained because I guess we "hurt her" yup whatever. So Keller came in and got me out of my class, and Haley out of hers. They called the police who came into the office and handcuffed me and Haley. The cop that arrested me was wicked mean. I stepped an inch forward and got screamed at. Me and Haley said one word to each other, and got screamed at. They put us in the cop car which was incredibly uncomfortable. The seats were hard and we had no leg room at all. Me and Haley were in the back trying not to laugh because that song Buck in Here came on and the cop turned it up. I was turned around laughing so hard. So we got to the station and they brought us to a small room. They took off are handcuffs and then handcuffed us to the bench. I was first, when they asked me all the questions and everything. Then they did the fingerprinting and I was first again. It seemed like it was one of the cops first days on the job because it took him a legit hour to fingerprint me. Then they took my picture twice because the first time I closed my eyes hahaa. They called my mom, stepdad, and dad and no one answered but my mom eventually called back. Haley got picked up before me so I was in there alone for like 15 minutes. When my mom got there I could tell she was pissed. I got in the car and she went ripshit. Only because Keller said that Holli was in the emergency room with a black eye, hair missing from her head, and vision loss. So my moms afraid shes gonna sue us. Which she probably will. She took my cell phone, the computer (I snuck on) My tv, and my friends away. But she took me tanning and made an appt. for my to get my hair done on friday? oh well. I'm suspended until next monday, so see everybody then. I never though I would say this, but I can't wait to go back to school.

Thursday.

2008-05-08T22:53:22Z

Today was the worst day of my life. Seems like in every journal entry I'm like some big emo depressed freak, but whateverrr. So Andrew didn't come to school today, he skipped with Dan and Ashley. He was gonna come pick me up from school but my phone died so I couldn't get in touch with him. So Jon played this big joke on me that Andrew cheated on me with this Lauren girl yesterday. And I was PISSED. So I texted Andrew and asked if it was true and he was like no I would never do that to you blah blah blah. Then Jon finally told me he was joking. Then Jon called me, and Andrew eventually got on the phone. we talked for a half hour, and in the beginning it was all "I love you baby" then ten minutes later he's talking about breaking up. I don't know how he suddenly got his mind on this? but he did. After like fifteen minutes of talking about breaking up, he finally did it. I cried yeah, like I always end up doing in every damn relationship. So he texted Haley and told her, and luckily I have her to talk to about it. She is basically going through the same thing as me, so we talk about it all the time. But this time I thought it was different, I though I would be happy, but boy was I wrong. I'm really undecided as to if I should talk to him, or just ignore him. I really do not know what to do, I'm in love with this kid, but he has hurt me so many times I cannot deal with it anymore. I'll write more tomorrow since I'm grounded all damn weekend.

groundment sucks.

2008-05-07T00:13:00Z

So it was 70 degrees out today, and while everyone hangout with each other, I went home and did a history project! :) FUNNN. yeah fuck that. Me and Andrew got into two fights today, well we almost broke up twice, thankfully we didnt. He means alot to me so yeah. Tomorrow supposed to be like really nice and I'm gonna be inside again, wooptie fucking doo. My damn school sent home a letter saying I might have to stay back next year, and my mom bitched at me for failing gym, like everyone else she was like how the fuck do you fail gym? Yeah thanks mom I already know I'm an idiot :) anywaysss. school sucks whatever. I had the weirdest dream last night but i only remember one part but its not like important so I'm not gonna say it. Ben got suspended today for dissing girolibitch in a blog on myspace? HOW FUCKING STUPID IS THATTT. hes my hero for it though. now hes gone for three days, what the hell am I gonna do in Algebra now :( Kyla better be there everyday that Bens gone. Well, I'll write more tomorrow, payce.

sunday and monday.

2008-05-06T00:06:49Z

SUNDAY-Well I never actually finished writing what I did on Sunday. But this is what happened. At like 12:30 I was laying in my brothers bed watching tv, and then Katelyn called and we made plans and stuff so I went in my dads room and he was awake so he got up and got ready to bring me home. So I got all my stuff together and stayed in my pajamas because I was comfy :) Well I made him stop at Dunkin Donutes because I wanted coffee, then we drove to cumberland. Katelyn wanted to me my dad for some reason? So I introduced her and Mariah then I went inside. We got ready and then walked to Cumberland Hill to go swing. When we were passing Valero Gas Station we saw Derek ride his bike down the street so I screamed his name and he turned around and came back and hungout with us.

Eventually Jon and Andrew got dropped off at the park by my friend Brittanys boyfriend. Their friends with him though. Mariah left after like a half hour and so did Derek so it was just me Jon Katelyn and Andrew. Andrew grabbed my hand and we walked through the woods and down to the soccer feild so we could be alone for once. It wasn't awkward like I thought it would be, it was fun. We actually got into our first fight since like 5 months ago that night, because he basically called me a slut but claims he didn't mean it that way? so Idk we're all better now because we talked things out. So at 7:40ishh we said bye to him and Jon, walked back to Katelyn's house and I got my bag. Then we went to Dunkin Donuts because we hadn't eaten anything. It was pitch black out and we were walking home eating donuts, pretty fun. I left her near bobbys house and she turned around and went home so I called Elizabeth and talked to her until I got home because I'm scared of the dark lmao. So thats what happened Sunday.

MONDAY-
Terrible day once again. Second period Keller called me out of Girolobitches class to the office. He asked if I was in school on friday and I said yes. Then he was like why were you not in Spanish. Hmm because I walked to coffee connections because I was craving caffeine? But I didn't say that. I said I don't know because I'm a complete idiot and couldn't think of what else to say. I told him I sat in the bathroom the whole time because I was having a bad day. He didn't buy it. He gave me SCI but didn't tell me what day I have it so whatever? Then he called my mom right infront of me I was like SHIT. I could hear my mom through the phone, she was pissed. When I got home I signed on the computer and she Imed me and made me do all this shit around the house like cleaning and stuff, basically told me my whole summer is ruined, and I'm grounded until next monday. KILL MEEE :). Now I have a fucking migraine, and I just had to type a huge essay that was due like 6 days ago that I'm probaby not gonna even get credit for but whateverrr. I'm bored, peace.

sunday morninggg.

2008-05-04T15:02:45Z

So its 11:00 and I've done absoloutely nothing. I woke up at 10:06 and then came on here. I think I'm gonna go have some cookie crisp and watch the lion king :) Depending on when my dad wakes up, I plan on going home and getting ready. I haven't hungout with Katelyn in a while so I'm gonna meet up with her and probably get some Dunkin or something. I miss Andrew so fucking much and its been not even two days, so we're probably going to meet him and Jon at the resevoir or something. Well, I'll write more later when I actually know whats going on. <3

alrighty.

2008-05-03T21:50:31Z

So, on friday I skipped fifth period and went to all lunches with Jon Jo and Haley. It was pretty fun. Then last period instead of going to Spanish me and Mandi walked to coffee connections and got coffee :) We had to hurry though because Haley was taking my bus home so I had to walk back to school with Mandi and get Haley. So as me and Mandi like Double 07d are asses out of the school in the pouring rain we just talked and shit as we were walking down to the coffee place. Then a fucking cop drives by us and we were like shit thinking it was office Kolek (our school police officer dude) but he just drove by and we were like alright we're fine. Then were walking into like the plaza were like chops is and eggs up and all that shit, and the cop pulls up to us and just watches us. So I put my hood on and satred at the ground. Pretty damn sketchy but whatever. Then he went into the next like parking lot place to turn around and come back so when he couldnt see us we RAN into coffee connections and hid behing the people in line. We waited till 1:10 then walked back to school with are coffees, walked in the school, went up to our lockers, and then the bell rang. I met up with Haley and Andrew and we didnt get caught :) We went to the foyer and hungout with Andrew and Jon for like ten minutes and then went to our bus. I gave the rest of my coffee to Amanda Drew because I didnt feel like holding it.

The bus was packed so Hay sat with Kevin and I sat on Joshs leg. We got off, walked home in the rain, and then stripped in my garage lmao. We were soaked. We ran down and threw are shit in the dryer then went upstairs, I gave Haley some sweatpants and I put on pj pants. Then we walked down to ryans house, picked up the liquor, and came back home. Talked and got ready for the movies. Dawn picked us up at 4:30ishhh then we went back to Hays house and my mom picked us up at 5, we went and picked up my little brother, and then went to the movies. Met up with Andrew and Jon. And we just hungout. They wanted to go to mcdonalds so we did. Then these obnoxious fucking dickheads were like haucking lugies so I was like can you shut the fuck up thats disgusting and they just started talking shit back so we were like wow your immature. Then I called one of the kids a fatass because he got up I swear 20 times to go get more apple pies and french fries. He might as well ordered the whole fucking place. One of the kids decides to call me a cunt right to my face. So I wanted to pour my soda on his big ugly ass head. But Andrew wouldnt let me, so Haley did :) It was hilarious, I fucking love her so much.

So the kids follow us to Target pour soda on Haley which somehow gets on me and Andrew? Haley punches one of the kids in the face, they get some white little wigger thats like 7 to come up and say something to us, and me and Haley were both just like SHUT THE FUCK UP. eventually she walked away. Then we went to the back of the parking lot, like in back of the movies and me and jon talked like alone.. and Haley and Andrew talked alone. Then me and Andrew talked and Haley and Jon walked to the total opposite way like across the parking lot. Andrew asked me out :):):):) and I obviously said yes. It was like the best night of my life. Then me and Haley got picked up by Adam, hes really nice and looks like a gangster when he drives lmao. We went home, ate cereal and pizza :) and then fell asleep. Haley woke me up at 10 by shaking the bed. Then her sister brought me home, I showered, went to chellos, then shopping, and now I'm at ny dads. Ill write more tomorrow seeings how this is like 100 pages long.

bad day.

2008-05-01T17:08:10Z

My day started off pretty good today but ended badly. First period I had a sub that didnt know where any of our work is so we sat there and did nothing. I talked to ben Kyla Liz and Caitlin about our visits to the emergency room that we've had. Gay? yeah. but whatever. Second period I had study for gym so I just sat there with Nikhia Mandi Bree Katina and Fausto and talked once again. Third period I had Biology, and Mr.Fuller was in there for a while because something was wrong with Maloney. Me haley and Jon just talked about our plans for tomorrow. Fourth period I skipped and went to study with Haley. Andrew was in there which made me happy I guess but we didnt really hangout with him, only for a minute then Haley was all hyper and he got annoyed and walked away. Me and Haley went over to the bleachers and sat and talked about everything for a long time. We both got really sad talking about Andrew and David, and we tried to give each other advice. Then Hay and Jo had to go sign in so I sat there then Andrew came over, asked why I was sad and I said Idk. i just cant really talk to him.. about him? If that makes sense. Fifth period I skipped, went to all lunches. I ended up crying infront of Haley Ben and Fausto but I didnt really care. Hay came to the bathroom with me for a minute so we could both like, calm down. Now I'm skipping again and I am in a random room with Ben. There is no teacher here, I guess he is supposed to have study but we arent going so whatever. I have to leave in ten minutes to go to Casavants and attempt to get my cell phone back. I'm hanging out with Jon Haley and Andrew tomorrow which should be really fun. We're gonna have liquor so yeah. I'm like excited to be hanging out with Andrew, because I love hanging out with him.. but I don't know if like something is going to happen and like idk its hard to explain. I guess I'll just write what happened either tomorrow night or saturday.